Money is Getting Cheaper

Money is Getting Cheaper. Obama wants to make pennies and nickles cheaper. This might be a good idea.

My Weight Problems

I see a lot of diets that are all about making you feel full. My weight problems aren't about feeling hungry all the time. My problems are about seeing or smelling something delicious and eating it even after I am full. It's the urge to eat that I have a problem with not the feeling full. So how do I control the urge to eat and eat and eat?

Tell me this and I will lose that 20 or 30 pounds and keep it off.

If fad diets could answer this question they would be more than fads.

PCH

Oh my God! Publishers Clearing House has to be the most annoying site sweepstakes site that sends out emails. The emails they send are so fucking misleading. They want you to believe you are missing something important until you actually open the emails and find that it is just another entry to a sweepstakes you will never win. That is the most annoying part, you won't win and no one you know ever will. I don't know anyone who has won the PCH sweepstakes or anyone who is involved with it. You see all the "proof" pictures all over the internet and television but your never see it in person and you never will. I feel PCH is a massive scam that flies so low under the radar because they payout millions to people who are so close to death they can feel the reapers icy breath on their necks.  When was the last time you saw a 21 year old win that sweepstakes? When was the last time you saw someone who was truly struggling win PCH? NEVER. I suspect PCH isn't a random drawing kind of thing. I believe they do that shit on purpose. Grandma wins because she won't be able to collect the full amount before she croaks. Little Miss 25 year old won't win because she will probably live another 75 years.

What the hell is up with the spammish offers PCH redirects you to after you submit your entry. "Here's a ballot for our sweepstakes, and by the way check out my affiliate "Reduce your Mortgage Now." What the fuck? 

PCH---Massive Scam---Makes Billions off people who think making a purchase will help win the sweepstakes.

More Money From Home

I am signing up for more sites to make money from home. :)

Dream

Last night I dreamed about my grandmother. All I remember is that she looked dead. Her lips were pale and she was bloated. My relationship with my grandmother was a very distant and difficult one. She had a long hard history with drugs and addiction. A lot was going on when she died and what I remember the most was that she was buried in a dirty dress.  I dream about her infrequently but when I do it's always weird.
I apparently woke my boyfriend up when I awoke at 4 AM from this disturbing dream.

Make Money Honey

I am creating and posting a video on youtube about how I have made money online in the past. I will most likely post it here for anyone who is interested.

On another note, It is almost time for bed and I am dreading going to work tomorrow. I hate it. This job with this company sucks. The D.O.N is a bitch and the conditions of the job are getting ridiculous. I can't be on the clock passed 3, I usually can't get enough time to take my breaks or my lunches. I have simply stopped taking food to work knowing I won't have time anyway. I think the stress is killing me and making me sick. When I get to work I dread most because I mostly work on the halls that have a shortage of help. I'm sorry but it is hard for two people to take care of 28 totally dependent adults who are demanding and completely selfish. One those halls we are supposed to have 3 people but my work place is severely under staffed. Anyway, I just want to gripe a little. I'm off to shower and sleep. 

Easily Bored

I don't know why I lose interest in things so easily. I was doing a West At Home application that takes about 45 minutes to an hour to complete. I got so bored in the middle that I switched back and forth from one Google tab to another. I came back to the original tab, and did more of the application questions then I switched when I got bored again. I had a work from home job that I made money from and got paid from ,but I got bored with it, and I ended up moving away from that job option. I think if I had been able to make more money with that job I probably would have stayed with it but it was basically a sales job that would take a tremendous amount of effort to pay my bills consistently. Anyway, I get so bored with stuff easily. I wonder if I have developed some kind of attention deficit.

My Poker Addiction

I play poker online and I have won small pots but I haven't won more than 300 on the slots. I suggest being an expert if you are going to start playing for money online. I like my sites because they have free tournament you can play in and win real cash. I wish the cash out was less than $500 on cake though.

My Day Off

I'm up early this morning and already online searching for a work from home position.
I will be posting some legit online job opportunities for those who are interest in working from home.

Never Ending Battle with Anxiety

Is it weird that I am sometimes convinced I am dying of some horrible disease? Like, I have this severe fear of contracting HIV or something incurable like that. I have never had anything come up on any medical tests but I still feel sometimes, since I work in a nursing home, that I have caught something and I am going to die immediately.
I have had this problem for a very long time and I have only recently seriously considered getting some kind of therapy for it.  I somehow have the strength to calm my anxiety down and relax before a panic attack develops. That strength I think is Daniel, my boyfriend. Anyway, I searching for professional help.

I imagine a lot of my problems started with my dysfunctional upbringing. That story is one for another day though.

Watching Rupauls Drag Race

My Top 5

Kenya

Latrese 

Chad

Fefe

Sharon Needles

I miss last season. :(

I LOVE RUPAUL

Welcome to the Jungle.

New Job

I'm looking for a new job.  My goal is to work from home.  I want to make enough to pay my bills. I want to be able to do something that isn't extremely challenging that I can get paid for without having to pay out. I guess this is something people dream about but I know people do it. I have found some interesting links to legit opportunities that allow my to work from home as an employee or as a contractor. The unfortunate thing is a lot of those things I am not qualified for. Sigh. I hope something turns up soon. I can't keep wiping ass for a living it is killing my hip.

Time For Bed

So, I'm sitting in bed dreading going to work tomorrow. I hate working at this place sometimes but then a resident will say something that makes me feel like my life and time isn't wasted as a CNA. So, it is time for bed i will see what happens tomorrow.

IDK

I decided to start blogging again. At first I thought blogging was a dumb idea, but it is basically and simply documenting life. My life is complicated and if you want to read about it... that is fine. My life has come to what feels like a stagnant pool. I go to work. I come home. I sit in front of the t.v like a fat dumb and happy American. Am I truly happy? Am I stuck in an existential crisis? I wonder why things don't change for me, but I know why. I just don't do anything about it. I think this is why America has come to the between that which resides among  the rocks and  hard places.  What do I do? To change I must get up and choose to do something else. What that something else is i do not know. Let's see what happens.